One Year

It is crazy to imagine that a year has past since my grandmother has died. All day today I have been thinking about her. I hate that my kids won't remember her at all. I hate that there wasn't anything we could do for her. She was diagnosed with cancer January 20, 2009 with stage 4 breast cancer. It was to late for her. What's crazy (not really actually) is that just a couple months before she had gone to the Dr and she was fine. 6months before we were all having a great time as a family in Disney for Anthony's birthday. WTF! I hate cancer; you have taken the only grandmother that was amazing to me, and she wasn't even blood related she was my step-dads mom. She was always there for me. She was the one that did my hair, make up, and nails for every occasion. She was there for my Quince, she was there for my wedding. She was the best. I hate that Gaby won't be able to learn from her. She won't know how great she was and how much fun they would have had together. Yaya and Gaby would have had a blast because Gaby loves getting her nails painted and getting her hair done. I hate that our family was torn apart. I HATE CANCER!!


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  2. I really liked yaya aswell, it was Dec 20th (just a month before she was diagnosed) when we talked for a big while as I showed them picts of the kids receiving the presents from santa in the firetruck. She was truly an amazing woman.

  3. Hello.
    I have a suggestion for you. A suggestion from a stranger, I know, its weird, but I was touched by your words.
    You say that you are upset that your children will never know "YaYa".
    Teach them about her, and they WILL know her. Those we love live on within us, and within those that love us, in turn.
    Teach them.

  4. Yeah I agree race,.,teach the kids,.,,.they will understand if you teach them..

  5. So sorry for your loss. I hate cancer too. I've lost too many people to it. Tell your kids stories about your grandmother until they do know her. Tell them all the things you did together and things that she said. They will love her even though they'll never actually meet her. Wishing you well.