I think I might just be losing my f#%# mind. My kids are seriously driving up the F$%@ wall. Today has been a H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E. day. Gaby wont stop crying. She crys for anything, and Monkey isn't helping. He keeps messing with her. I am seriously counting down the days until he starts school. I am looking forward to more time to keep up with the house and just handling one kid. It is so frustrating. I think that I might be going to some sort of depression because I don't feel right. I lose my temper pretty quietly and I have no patience whatsoever. I am going to NY in April just for the weekend to be with my sister on her birthday. It is just me going. I really need this break. That's that I have to get back to the chaos.